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FEAR Not!

I just love it when you see God moving (even when you can't tell just what He's up to quite yet). The last two days I've been one of 20 lucky ladies who got to be part of Lysa TerKeurst's studio audience. She was filming the DVD sessions for her brand new Bible study (coming out in December), called "Made to Crave." It was evident to me from the moment I found out I was going to be part of this that God was up to something. He ordained each of us to be there...and we each had our own personal reason of why.

My reason seemed obvious: my lifelong struggle with weight. The funny part though, is that when I offered to be part of this, I had NO idea what the Bible study was even going to be. I just knew I loved Lysa. Well, God has spoken to me in so many ways during the last two days, that I am still processing all of it.

Here's what really struck me on the way home: I was able to be refreshed. I mean, if you know me and have kept up with the happenings in my parents' lives this summer...you know I haven't had much of a "refreshing" summer. It's been a pretty emotionally exhausting one, to put it nicely. But over the last two days, I was able to have some "me" time. Time to be quiet and listen to God. Time to make connections with an incredible group of women. Time to be blessed by Lysa's teaching. Time to be without my children. (You knew I was going to include that somewhere.) Time. For. Me. Yeah! It felt great.

So as I'm going the short distance from the church to home, I was reflecting on all the snippets of conversations I'd had since yesterday. Some of these conversations were external and happened with the precious group of ladies I got to share this experience with (including things Lysa shared with us). Many of the conversations happened internally between me and God. Here are some of the things flying through my mind:
  • having the COURAGE to allow God to do an amazing work in my life in terms of my relationship with food
  • having the COURAGE to sign up for and attend the Proverbs 31 Ministries "She Speaks" Conference next summer
  • having the COURAGE to step out in faith in the direction I feel God leading me and not be held back by: insecurity, financial worry, moving away from my comfort zone
  • having the COURAGE to truly give all my gifts back to God and allow Him to do an amazing work through me
Are you seeing the pattern? Yes, I know. I made it pretty obvious. God hit me right between the eyes this afternoon with one simple fact: Fear is holding me back. In pretty much every aspect of my life. Fear! False Evidence Appearing Real. The opposite of faith. A giant roadblock sent straight from the enemy. Fear.

Well, guess what?! Not anymore it's not! I am ready to push off from the comfort zone of the dock, and set sail into some new areas with my Jesus. Oh friends. It's going to be scary! But it's going to be the most fun adventure.

Stay tuned as I pray and process my way through this. I just know God is up to something good! He always is.

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